i actually dislike the way i write lately. it's like the non-fiction books i read. i really quite dislike it even though i prefer reading non-fiction to fiction. maybe i should stop writing here for a while, until they start getting less factual. this is a reflection of my state of mind: less emotions and more evaluation. it's not exactky writing, it's really merely a storage space for my thoughts.

i feel so dry and boring. but maybe this is me. that's ok.